February 14, 2000
the cigarette burns out
REVELATIONS ARE NEVER WHAT YOU WANT
PAIN ENDURES BEYOND EVEN YOUR UNDERSTANDING OR CAPACITY FOR HATRED
PLEASE DESTROY ME JUST A LITTLE BIT MORE? MY SOUL STILL HAS A FEW THREADS OF LIFE LEFT.
Sex is nature's way of telling you that your time is over and it's your kids' turn now.
It's always the last place you look.
But then, be careful, because it then detonates in your face when you find it.
AND BLACKENED, YE SHALL WALK THE EARTH UNTIL THE END OF DAYS.
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a man betrayed
Hey, does the other guy make you tea when you're sick?
Hey, does the other guy want to have kids with you?
Hey, does the other guy help you bulletproof your server?
Hey, does the other guy want to leave his wife for you?
Hey, does the other guy want to leave his church for you?
Hey, does the other guy love watching geek soap operas with you?
Hey, does the other guy stand behind everything you do?
Hey, does the other guy give you flowers on a random day, just because?
Hey, does the other guy cook gourmet meals for you?
Hey, does the other guy play music for you?
Hey, does the other guy support you emotionally?
Hey, does the other guy respect you?
Hey, does the other guy know the meaning of the word "compassion"?
Hey, does the other guy love you?
DO YOU UNDERSTAND AT ALL WHAT YOU ARE DOING?
DO YOU CARE AT ALL ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE DOING?
DO YOU FEEL ANY REMORSE ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE DOING?
DO YOU THINK YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING?
DO YOU DEIGN TO VALIDATE WHAT YOU ARE DOING?
DO YOU HAVE ANY BLOODY CLUE WHAT YOU ARE DOING?
DO YOU MEAN TO ACTUALLY DO WHAT YOU ARE DOING?
DO YOU EVEN THINK AT ALL ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE DOING?
DO YOU HAVE ANY FEELINGS AT ALL ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE DOING?
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Taunting the weak
Are there any Christians around to taunt? I'm feeling the groove.
ARISE MY SON, FOR THOU ART REBORN
THE BITTER FLOWS THROUGH THY VEINS
AND THOU ART EMPOWERED
AGAINST THOSE WHO PREACH BLIND LOVE
WHILST PROFANING THE VERY CONCEPT
WITH THEIR LIMITED MINDS
AND HYPOCRITICAL WAYS
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the perfect date
"I only date Ivy men."
"I only date bankers."
"I only date men who can wear Armani."
"I only date men who wear Armani."
"I only date men who don't want me."
"I only date men that I can control."
"I only date men who don't think for themselves."
"I only date men who shop for me at Cartier."
"I only date women who I can abuse."
"I only date women who I can objectify."
"I only date women who worship me."
THIS WORLD IS NOT DESIGNED FOR THE LIKES OF YOU
YOU ARE AN ABERRATION AND DO NOT BELONG HERE
YOU HAVE FEELINGS WHICH ARE UNIMPORTANT
YOU HAVE MORALS WHICH ARE OUTDATED
YOU HAVE ETHICS WHICH ARE TRIVIAL
GET BACK IN YOUR LITTLE HOLE AND STAY THERE
WHILE THE REST OF US TAKE THIS WORLD FOR ALL IT'S WORTH
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Shiny Happy People
I live in a building filled with Beautiful People in Happy Couples.
Every so often one gets to me, and I stare at them. I stare at them
with the baleful glare of hatred. I stare with the white-hot fire
of liquid BITTER.
And they never notice as they coo and cuddle with each other.
One day I will snap, and many beautiful people will scream in
bloodcurdling wails, experiencing real pain for the first time in
their dreary, pathetic, simpleton lives.
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Betrayal
Betrayal is one of the primary amusements of the BITTER. A good betrayal
can amuse it for months.
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Where is the BITTER?
Remember, no matter where you go, there BITTER is.
Just look in the shadow.
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February 13, 2000
abuse for reason
Why have I been pissed upon so much recently for being rational? Why have the past few weeks taught me to shut my mouth because all that a cool, logical, level-headed gets you is a few less friends?
Because they are in a state of denial and are wounded by your attempt to help them see the Truth.
Logical causation is an important tool for exposing these people to the BITTER.
Do not let them deviate you from your true path. If it has grown too painful for you to try to correct them, then give them their space right now. But if you still have energy, and you feel like being an interventionalist (because make no mistake, it's as intrusive to a closed-minded and closed-souled person as that
infernal Evangelical Christianity is to most of us), then you should keep coming back to them, because they need guidance.
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CD mauling?
did the BITTER scratch my beethoven piano concerto cd?
No, that was "whiny". The BITTER respects classical music.
Except Elgar and Liszt.
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February 12, 2000
color of the BITTER
What is the color of the BITTER?
Somewhere between dried blood, stomach acid, and pitch black.
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More rumination on the BITTER
The BITTER was not nominated for an Academy Award, because the BITTER is a major component of the glue that holds the gold figure to the base.
The BITTER is the explanation for your spontaneous nosebleeds.
The BITTER causes Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.
The BITTER is responsible for 22q11.2 deletions.
The BITTER would like some peppermint tea.
But only if it's organic.
The BITTER causes cancer in laboratory rats.
Everybody has a different LD50 for the BITTER.
I have a different BITTER for LD50.
Angostura is not the only kind of BITTER.
Even if Hemingway once compared it to varnish.
Although it used to contain high amounts of strychnine bark, which only seems to validate the theory.
YOU! YES, YOU! YOU ARE NOT BITTER ENOUGH!
The BITTER is the lover touching your lips, shushing you gently, as it gets ready to plunge the icepick in your kidney.
The BITTER will help you sleep at night.
It is up to you to try and wake up again in the morning.
Now I lay me down to sleep...
The wrath of BITTER my soul shall reap.
The BITTER is ageless.
The BITTER is timeless.
The BITTER provides fuel for your soul.
If you have one.
If you don't, the BITTER can get you one, wholesale.
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Honor thyself to honor the BITTER
Well, hey I need to work out my own self worth...so neah...and yes, I AM GOING TO SAY IT...it really PISSES ME TO CARE ABOUT A LOT OF PEPOPLE AND HAVE NO IDEA WHETHER OR NOT THEY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME.
Hello. Have you considered ASKING THEM?
The BITTER has no respect for those who cannot enshroud themselves.
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February 11, 2000
Rumination on the BITTER
When people deride something as "simple" and "unfunny" as Peanuts, do they realize what a pure view of the BITTER they are missing?
Do you understand that the BITTER is founded on the premise of tragic love?
If you need mythological references to help you understand the BITTER, try the Book of Job in the Judeochristian mythos reference "The Holy Bible".
Remember, while we are focusing on the BITTER as a pungent cloak for turning the stomachs of those who turn ours on February 14, the BITTER has many expressions and causes, not all of which are due to 'love'.
Take, for instance, the sheer inanity present in everyday academic or corporate existence. There is plenty that causes the BITTER to flow and plenty being tapped into the wellspring of BITTER can do for you in such times.
However, it is true that in matters of the heart, we are at our most vulnerable, and the pathetic "autres" out there are at their most capricious and malicious, and as such it is perhaps the most fertile and ripe source and target for the BITTER.
The BITTER is gender-neutral.
No matter how much the anger is coursing through your veins and defocusing your BITTER, you should still not recommend to a coworker that the responsible party for an egregious breach of protocol be brought over so you can knife them.
Since I can't drink, at least I have the BITTER.
Since I can't smoke hashish, at least I have the BITTER.
Since I can't shoot heroin, at least I have the BITTER.
EMBRACE THE BITTER AND IT SHALL SET YOU FREE.
The BITTER, like Death, likes kittens, and will put a pan of milk out for them.
Which is of course cruel in a way, since they're lactose intolerant.
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by any other name
Roses are increased in cost approximately 800% for the two weeks around February 14.
The BITTER is a raging capitalist.
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women and borderline BITTER
My possesion of the BITTER is borderline; I repeatedly get shat on by women in unusually spectacular ways, but I still try to make an effort to keep a positive outlook on life.
But does it keep you from being denigrated and ignored by the women? No. So why not take comfort with your TRUE friend, the BITTER?
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using the BITTER
I have the BITTER, however, I currently lack the eloquence to fully exploit the powers that come with it.
Do not worry, for the BITTER knows how best to use you.
In time, young one, your powers will grow, and as the BITTER becomes more and more a part of you, so shall you become more and more part of the BITTER, and from your voice shall flow forth eloquent words of disdain and praise and you shall become a voice of the BITTER.
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feeling the BITTER
Have you been violated? Feel the BITTER.
Have you experienced loss? Feel the BITTER.
Do you look around in comtempt at all the delusional people all about you, people who bask in naivete-granted faux happiness? Feel the BITTER.
Do you say "fuck it" a lot? Feel the BITTER.
Do you cry yourself to sleep, and then hate yourself for doing so? Feel the BITTER.
Do you set your jaw in anger at the idiotic things that you are forced to do by the contemptable pea-brains you work for or are taught by? Feel the BITTER.
Do you sit around thinking about how much better your high school was than the pale, rancid, plastic, limp, pathetic excuse for social fabric that most of reality has? Feel the BITTER.
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a BITTER exercise
Close your eyes.
Is everything quiet? Good.
Take a deep breath. Let it out slowly.
Now empty your mind. Just float, relax, go calm.
There yet? Good.
Now, imagine a field of grass on a nice sunny day. Blue sky, some clouds lazing along, and a nice field of grass with some rabbits playing and the trilling of birds and maybe a happy squirrel munching on a nut.
Now, quick: WHAT IS YOUR FIRST REACTION?
If you thought or felt, "Yeah, right," you are of the BITTER.
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February 10, 2000
Punjabi BITTER
Like Death, the BITTER loves a good curry.
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sarcasm
"Oh, a sarcasm detector! That's a REALLY good idea!"
Sarcasm is just a six letter word to the BITTER.
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accidental hurting
but then again, no one EVER intentionally hurts ANYONE ELSE.
No, don't be in DENIAL of the BITTER. It can't help you when you do that.
and if you didn't MEAN to, then that makes it ALL OKAY! doesn't it?
The BITTER is smirking along with your subconscious.
but it's ok. i'm over it. really.
The BITTER isn't fooled.
The BITTER is playing crazy eights with your sauciness right now.
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BITTER draining
The only problem I have with a good resurgence of the BITTER is that I always feel so empty and drained when it subsides.
When you caress the face of God, what else is there to do with the rest of your day?
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just want one BITTER girl
Sometimes, all I want is a girl who appreciates the BITTER. But they don't. Or at least, no one here.
Oh, they think the BITTER is to be feared, to be reviled, to run away from, to avoid, to mask, to denigrate, to subjugate, to coat with lithium and zoloft.
AND FOR THEM, THEY ARE RIGHT.
Because they cannot HANDLE the BITTER, and on plastic shells of human beings such as themselves the BITTER feeds and sucks marrow and digests grey matter and replenishes you in your Ubermenschian status to go out another day as a Disciple of How Things Really Work, dammit!
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the tao of BITTER, part I
IF YOU CANNOT HANDLE THE BITTER, WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING HERE?
but the bitter can handle you, regardless, so let it tickle your belly
AS IT DRIVES ITS FANGS INTO YOUR FOREBRAIN
but it will protect you, so hush, don't cry, everything's alright in its tender embrace
BECAUSE THERE REALLY IS NO CHOICE, THERE IS EITHER THE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF THE BITTER IN YOUR SOUL, OR THE DENIAL THAT IT IS ALL AROUND YOU, CHOKING YOU, SUFFOCATING YOU, DROWNING YOU IN A SEA OF PUS AND BILE AND BLOOD AND MERCURY AND PHLEGM AND
butterflies and tulips and daffodils and rainbows
...
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